I'm so pumped about my GO experience last night, I thought
I'd share with you so you too could get pumped about the teaching you've all
labored so hard on, bearing fruit. This touched me for several reasons... one
which began a little over a year ago when I was going through a time of feeling
"insignificant" in God's kingdom. Yes, I knew that my first
priority was my husband and 5 kids, but I wanted to do more that would impact
the world now and not later.
During my struggle, I was waking up every night about 2:30am
and unable to go back to sleep. No, I don't have any problem sleeping
usually, but God was waking me up, so I found myself asking him each night,
"OK, Lord who are we praying for tonight?" I found myself
praying for all kinds of people, ministries, and leaders. After a couple
of months of this, I had a dream that just awakened my soul to what the Lord
had for me. I had a dream where I was on my knees next to my bed
praying. As I was praying, the Lord showed me that exactly what I was
praying was happening on the other side of the world!
I woke up, then woke up my husband David and told him what I
had just saw in my dream. I was so moved. I knew what the Lord
wanted me to know... it was this: "I have everything I need to be
significant in God's kingdom, it's prayer. With prayer, I can change the
world. It's the power that God gives me to move mountains, heal and
change the world." From that night on, I was at peace with my place
and the significance I have in God's kingdom.
Now, you're probably wondering what this has to do with my GO experience.
Well, a few days ago I got an email from our small group leader reminding us
all that we were going out for another GO experience. Immediately, I
felt, "Oh, no! I really don't want to go." But, I prayed
in my heart for those we'd talk to and that the Lord would even now, prepare
their hearts. I prayed that if I stepped out in obedience to my
authorities, that the Lord would meet me and make my experience very
positive. At that point, I gave it to the Lord and decided I'd just roll
with it and see what happened... after all, maybe I wouldn't need to go and I
was getting nervous about nothing.
Yesterday, when I knew we were going, I again prayed, and
knew in my heart that I was going to do this... so, just like when I know I
have to do something, I just determined in my heart to go for it (even though I
still was nervous). I told my husband when he got home, "I'll go
with you again and watch you and throw comments in along the way."
He said, "Oh, no! I did it last time and now it's your turn!"
(BTW- last time he did a GREAT job and is very comfortable doing this kind of thing.
Ever since I've met him he's been talking to strangers about the Lord.)
Well, we got to small group, and after watching the video, took off for where
ever the Lord lead. As we drove down the road, we determined to go to a
local park that I'd never been to because it was such a beautiful
evening.
David went first and walked up to a Latino gentleman.
The man did the questionnaire, but it was obvious he wanted out of there giving
"I don't know." as his best answer. We invited him to come to
church where, he could know, and let him go. At this point, David turned
to me, put the pad in my hand and said, "Your turn!" I took it
and said in my heart, "Ok Lord. Here I go. Show me who you
want me to talk to and Please let this go well."
I looked around the park and saw a young woman sitting on a
bench alone looking at her cell phone. I decided she was the one. I
told David and Cindy, "I'm just going to be honest with her." So, I
walked up and said, "Hey, would you do me a favor? My church wants me
to do this questionnaire and I really don't want to, but I need someone to let
me do it. Would you do it for me?" She said, "Sure!
I'd be happy to!" I was thrilled!! I sat down next to her and
we found that her name was Dawn and has 5 kids, so immediately we had something
in common and we could relate to each other's hardships.
Dawn went through the questionnaire and I knew by her
answers that this was going to go well. She then listened with interest
to me read through the booklet and we really had a good time just talking through
it. At the end, I read the prayer, and Dawn was nodding her head.
She told me, that a year ago she had cervical cancer, chemo-therapy and really
needed this then (holding the booklet and invitation to church), but she needs
it even more now! She told me that she'd definitely be at church and
asked me how to get there for this Sunday. I explained that the only
bummer about our church is that it is 30-35 minutes away, to which she replied,
"I don't care! I want to go."
I gave her my number and name on the back of the booklet and
told her to call me if she was going... I'd be happy to meet her there, help
her get her kids to children's ministry (which I told her was wonderful, how my
family was involved and how much we love it.) and sit with her. She then
shared with me that 4 days ago she was thinking about this (she was holding the
booklet in her hand). She said, "It's kinda weird that I'm talking
to you now... it's no coincidence." I shared with her that a few
days ago, I was praying for her and here I am talking to her. I could
have gone anywhere in the area... now that is no coincidence!! God once
again, answered my prayer just like He showed me He would in that dream.
Honestly, it's been a whole year of things like this... I shouldn't be surprised,
but it's so awesome to see it so clearly and be encouraged by the Lord that
He's with us all the way.
Please pray for Dawn. I'm hoping she'll call me and we can connect
again. As I laid in bed and thought about it, I realized, there was so
much I could have done better, but I'm praying that God gives me another chance
to speak with her... maybe become her friend and a support in her life. I
hope this encourages you like it did me.... thanks for pushing us past what we
are comfortable doing!
- Sharon Ruth